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|_| ...2018-04-04 |___/
So, I decided to visit a friend tonight, but he was not home, so I decided to
spend some time alone with my laptop.. The dead quiet of the middle-of-nowhere
just appealed to me tonight, so I drowe out into it.. Finding a place that
seemed to be at least a few hundred meters from other human life..
First, I then see a man on a bike, and then a police car..
I sit and watch some Neon Genesis Evangelion while eating a salad (trying to
learn how to eat raw tomatos, disgusting things they are!).. Then the police
car returns, shines the search light into the car, I wave at them..
They park next to my car, and I open the door to ask if there's a problem.
There was not any immediate problem, but they asked what in the world I was
doing sitting in the back of a car in the middle of nowhere.. Well, I can see
how that can look suspicious, and apparantly, a nearby summer-house had been
broken into, so they were just checking.. I had to hand over my drivers license
(for ID) and explain ownership of the car.. I know this is just normal
procedure, and they were polite and pleasant, but I still get the feeling that
it could mean potential trouble.. I'm not a big believer in "the system" being
competent to any reasonable degree, so I'm a bit worried about potentially
having been registered as being near a crime scene.. What if someone gets
something mixed up? Now, I do understand, that since I've done nothing wrong
there should be nothing to worry about, but still, I am naturally inclined to
imagine failure scenarios, it's kind of what I do.. See a thing, and then the
(more or less) potential ways it could turn to utter disaster will unfold
themselves before me. So.. Am I writing this to put proof out there of my
innocence? Wouldn't the guilt do the same? Is writing this making me more
of a suspect? Well.. Anyway, that's the reason I'd never become a criminal,
I'm simply too paranoid about interacting with the system, no matter how
professional and nice they are.. Even as I'm innocent I become scared..
Have a look at the Discworld MUD, it's the first MUD I've actually spent
some real time playing, I'm not out of the newbie area yet, so I'm sure
by some standards, I've not spent ANY time at all (like the 20.000 hours
guy) but still, I've spent longer with it than any other, it's well written
and with humour too.
Sitting here, in the back of the car, with so few things compared to the
many thousands of objects that I posses (or are possessing me?) there is
a certain kind of calm.. The space is pleasant.. I wonder.. Objects..
They take time. I've always gathered objects, not exactly hoarded, but
been quite fond of things.. Somewhere, in the back of my mind, I have a
different view of the future, when presented with a new thing.. I am
always thinking "well, if I end up having nothing to do, it'd be jut
swell to spend some days getting this board up and running/ learning how
to use this chip/restoring this old computer/making this project with that
component/you name it", but, in the 32 years I've lived, I've not had that
situation come to me, often I've been stressed trying to chose amongs my
things, to try and use my precious time in the way that I would most want
to.. It's difficult to say what one most wants to do.. This is ranting, I
know.. I know this is not unique to me, I'm thinking about short-attention-
span-culture.. Is it, that because we have so much to chose from, it becomes
so much harder to really chose a thing to spend larger armounts of time on?
Could it be, that because we have too many choices, we become unable to chose
many of them because they are too costly (time-wise) ? Is that the reason why
the 3-4 minute youtube video is more appealing than the 2 hour documentary?
Is it why we generaly prefer to watch TV series instead of their movie counter-
parts, or why we prefer watching a movie over reading the book (generally,
I know many people do read books, myself included, but the sheer volume of
books I consume fades quickly in contrast to the amount of TV show episodes
or event he time I spend on these "small package" enterntainments).
I know I'd not want to get rid of my stuff, and, at least for now, I'm not
interested in ridding myself of it.. I'd, however, be willing to store it
off-site, it'd be kind of neat I think.. A storage space, where I could go
and check out ONE thing, and bring that home, and check it back into storage
before taking out another thing.. It's kind of how it works at home, but
still, the deciding is more difficult because everything is so readily
avilable.. Basically, maybe it'd be easier to chose if it was harder to get
to all things but one.. Then do that one thing until I get enough of it that
I want to make the investment of checking it back into storage and taking out
another thing.. Sort of like back when I had a small harddrive on my computer
and I had room for either 2-3 smaller games OR 1 big game.. For example, I
could install ActionQuake2, but that'd be it.. So I'd play that game for a long
time before uninstalling it, then I could install Duke3D, Carmageddon and such
and play those for a while..